April 17, 2010

Well as I was saying yesterday how sad I was going to be about leaving Kaz, turns out I am not leaving until Thursday any way. When Tatyana called to tell me I had just finished packing, oh well now I will semi un-pack again.

To say I am upset is an understatement.  Tatyana said you are a very strong woman and you will be fine. Well at that moment I did not feel very strong and as I hung the phone up burst in to tears, just for a few moments. It is just that we were so close to coming home, life here is a little lonely. I wish I knew some other PAPS who were in Almaty. Maybe we will take a walk to Hotel Kazakhstan to see if we are able to find the lady who is delayed in leaving. Even if we do not find her it will be a nice walk lets hope tomorrow it does not rain.

Oliver is changing by the day, the 2nd day he was happy as long as he could see me, but now seeing me is not enough he wants me to hold him which are all good signs. Another thing when he would wake up from a nap or in the morning he would lay there very quietly and I would have to keep checking to see if he was awake. Not today, this morning and after each nap he begins really crying and as soon as I pick him up he smiles. It does not take them long to realize this but what is so sad is at such a young age they have already learned that there is no point in crying because  nobody can come right away. Also tonight after his bath he was lying in my arms smelling all clean, drinking his bottle and looking up at me. Such a simple moment for the non-adopted child, but for Oliver, he has never had this. So simple, but also so very important. He is such a happy baby today. Tatyana took us to the park with the stroller. There were so many weddings and all of them did not look a day over 18. Now I know why somebody said in my country you are grand parents because judging by today’s weddings we are.

As I sit and write this the rain is coming down in sheets. Please let it rain all night and be sunny the next couple of days, it really is pouring, may be I should close the windows!!!!!

Wish we had more to write but our days are not filled with activity just yet. Any way I did get to go to buy a few gifts today while Tatyana stayed with Oliver. It was funny not to be with him even though we have only been together 5 days it feels so much longer in a good way.

Will keep you posted as to when we are coming home, oh oh the lights just flicked better go find the flash light!!!

The Vigale Family

Adoption Journey to Kazakhstan

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