April 13, 2010
It is now almost 7:45 and in just a short while I will get to have my Gotcha day with my son. So many thoughts are racing through my mind and a part of me is really sad to be leaving Semey and its wonderful people who have given us a special gift of our son. I wish I could explain to Oliver what is about to happen. Instead, in his eyes, he is being kidnapped, taken away from everything he has ever known, his home and baby house family. He is going to feel so scared and all I can do is love him and love him more. The boding time was wonderful and we really began to know each other, but now almost 7 long weeks have passed and we will have to start over again. It is too long in between trips; he will not remember me or even feel at ease with me. For this I am sad and will do everything I can to help him in this transition. It is going to be so hard for us both, but his life will never be the same again. Before I came back, I would say I cannot wait to break him out of the baby house, but now just hours away, I feel so excited to see him but just wish he knew me more. Maybe it would not make it easier but I am a stranger who he will grow to love in time, but for now I am a stranger.
I look back at the photos we took back in Feb and smile to think how he changed with our love right before our eyes and I know in time he will feel the love of our family, but I cannot help fell so sad and so happy at the same time, all I want to do is take him in my arms and run. It may have felt easier if I had seen him yesterday, but that did not happen, so today it is April 13th 2010, and another family is complete - made possible through adoption. Please keep us both in your thoughts and prayers, that I will be a least a familiar face for him that he feels a little safe and is willing and able to take my comfort. Things we all take for granted, that he will know we will always be there for him.
Sorry this post is rambling. I am trying to type with tears streaming down my face and my mind is on over load, relax a new journey is about to begin.
Not sure if I will be able to post from Almaty but know you all want to see him in blue hats and clothes. Will update when I can or when I return next week. Until then, one thing I know is a very special little boy is waiting to meet all of you who have been on this journey with us. Just a little longer and he will be home. Love from Semey to all our family and friends, we could not have done this without you. Look out Ollie here we come!!!!!!!!!
The Vigale Family
Adoption Journey to Kazakhstan
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